Moving On

Death of a Sister  

Over months your speech has dissolved, the slur heavy

as wet sand, words formless

as water.

 

You lie beached upon the strand-line of your bed

and I walk it, combing the minutes and hours, holding

the hollow sounds to my ear.

 

Almost two decades between us;

no bonds built, brick by toy brick;

no mortar of sibling play.

 

In your wheelchair

your stricken body stiffens and twists,

the gasp of gills – hooked and reeling –

Your eyes pleading, ‘throw me back’.

 

And still the Hospice garden blooms…

 

You point to a trellis,

and with a clarity like the shock of cold water, you utter,

‘Jasmine!’

one startling word,

the last

I will comprehend;

one word

with the power of open ocean;

one seismic word that crashes over me.

And when the sound recedes,

what is left that I can recognise?

                                                                         Maria Ede-Weaving

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7 Comments

  1. Erik said,

    October 5, 2009 at 3:21 am

    I’m so sorry.

  2. luckyloom1 said,

    October 5, 2009 at 10:14 am

    Dear Erik, thank you. My sister actually died four years ago. I have been struggling with finishing this poem, as indeed I have been struggling with the events that have unfolded around and beyond my sister’s passing – families can be complex and painful things. Recently, I have felt a strong need to move on and away from the aftermath – making a choice to accept what I just can’t change – and strangely, the poem has finished itself. I find it amazing how cathartic writing can be.Thank you so much Erik – this morning, your comment means more than you could know. X

  3. trish said,

    October 11, 2009 at 10:29 pm

    i have read your poem, it is very powerful, how hard it must have been. What a beautiful last word to have heard, it must continue to resonate. I dont really know whato say, i think you are a beautiful person, inside and out xxxx

  4. luckyloom1 said,

    October 11, 2009 at 10:35 pm

    Thank you Trish XXX

  5. Courtney said,

    October 12, 2009 at 4:04 pm

    This is a very beautiful poem. The metaphors work really well. Thank you for sharing it.

  6. luckyloom1 said,

    October 12, 2009 at 4:09 pm

    Thank you Courtney X

  7. Tracey Jones said,

    November 3, 2009 at 10:25 pm

    Hi Maria,
    Have been having a look at your blog tonight , the poem about your sister is really powerful and moving, i remember that time and how difficult it was for you and i am pleased you were able to finish the poem, a powerful sign in itself as you said of being able to move on in some way. Pleased you are finding some peace with it and with yourself, lots of love
    Traceyxx


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